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Some thoughts on mental health

It’s not very easy to reach out and ask for help when you are going through something, especially if you have been going through it for quite some time. There’s the thought that you are perhaps being selfish, being the Debbie Downer in the conversation, and subjecting those you love to the same circles of negative thought again and again. Then there’s the feeling of not being able to convey what’s on your mind because it makes things a little worse to not have the other person understand what’s going on, even if they try. Sometimes it becomes difficult to express what you feel because it seems irrelevant when compared to other larger problems. Sometimes it’s difficult to express things because you aren’t able to see a clear solution.

A lot of it is a reaction to your external circumstances, which is different for every person, depending on their own personal experiences in the past. So it’s understandable that not everyone is going to understand. It also means that the path ahead may be different for each person. There’s no manual for this. Google (and the internet really) doesn’t have all the answers. It can get pretty lonely.

Sometimes, you know exactly what you need to do, except you lack the energy to do it, or you don’t know how to do it when you’ve been feeling drained for a long time.
People tell you to get out of your comfort zone and expand your horizons, but staying out of your comfort zone for ages and ages doesn’t help – you are uncomfortable! It becomes difficult to know what level of comfort and discomfort is normal really.

“Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean it is not real?”

Reminder to self: Healing is a process.
Hope, love, faith and time. 💛✨